Ok, enough, here you have to get things moving! Yesterday I called the homeopath
begging for emergency aid, but I'll have to wait until Tuesday to visit because there are too many things I do not know, stories that need what happened last time we seen (April) and on hiatus because I have to visit in July. Yeah, why? What happened? I ought to know it? Why I'm missing?
April ... do not remember anything of April ...
Fog also on my feelings at this time.
Last night I had a moment of pure panic and wanted to hurt me really bad. And it seemed as if all was lost, as if I had done something irreparable harm as if he'd never been able to be happy.
He held me in his arms and, while kneeling on the ground, I held her she said: "There is nothing going wrong, think about love."
He was right, there is nothing going wrong, but then what is this black sea that is rampant in my head?
When we managed to put in the bed I told him I felt dirty that I would never been cleaned and I can not forgive, I act like I have forgiven but not so. These words surprised me.
He asked me if I have forgiven those who do not deserve my forgiveness and I have not hesitated to say yes, because everyone deserves forgiveness, but mostly because I deserve to go forward and I can not do that without forgiving.
But this leaves me very frightened: How the hell MA 'THAT ARE STILL AT THIS POINT? I turned it on myself? How is that surfaced this magma?
Perhaps it is useless to me these questions, perhaps you just have to accept it and thank my body, which somehow makes me understand that the balance has gone down the drain.
And here I say to Holly, telling me that vomit is not good. Already, there are dangerous physical consequences, would surely be better to be happy and in perfect balance, but it is not.
I believe that my behavior with food is the alarm bell that allows me to understand that there is something that I can no longer ignore. At the same time allows me to throw out and, as the fever that protects the body against viruses and bacteria, it prevents my body to get sick. Why
diseases that we have invaded it. The body becomes ill because the head is not well. And the head is enough to make us heal from any disease if we were willing to believe and to re-learn how to use it. But here we enter into difficult subjects that would require pages and pages (maybe one day I will dedicate it).
I think of my mother who has always kept it all in without wanting to empower anything, and now, after so many years, his body rebels against throwing out the evil in his own way, I would say finally! I just do not know how much she will take this message and, instead of bombarding the body of cortisone, to understand what needs to tidy up inside herself.
So I take note of my fever and I do not dare to suppress it with medication but let him vent and try to figure out what to do in the meantime so that the fever has no more reason to exist and that the temperature drops naturally.
Fortunately, whereas once the fever was so high as to provoke a seizure, is now only a few dash too. And that's what makes me say that "we are running out." We're throwing out the last remaining toxins!
About toxins and rebalance your energy ... I enrolled at naturopathy school! 'S why I went to Prato. Attend a weekend and one is not, the lessons are all day Saturday and Sunday but I almost always arrive on Friday afternoon so I appeal to those of you who live in the area: see you!
This first weekend exceeded expectations, are excited about this new path and I am sure that will help me in my journey toward balance and happiness.
I leave you the link so anyone who wants the academy can browse: Academy of Naturopathy ANEA
During this weekend we did the first lesson of foot reflexology, and behold a new world opens up. How many things we do not know guys! How many more seem obvious, and instead are just FALSE.
E 'of what I talk about in my blog hypothetical parallel: a route different from what we require school textbooks, media, pharmaceutical companies and all those who have an interest in get rich by sacrificing the lives of others.
For now I continue to think and while I practice with reflexology on the feet of one who loves me and might be subject to torture .. :)
In contrast the work does not go well, the town where I work (worked?) Has done untold cuts to all services for children and mine is one of those who may not go (we have cut 80 %!!). funds The saddest thing is that it is a service with a long history, deeply rooted in the territory and first point of reference for children but also for parents, teachers, neuropsychiatry, etc. ..
We hope to keep it alive somehow.
To combat the "crisis" I also entered another training course to become the hippotherapy! Finally! For an educator who began riding at the age of three years was an almost obligatory step .. The course will be in March, will last one month (the Regulation states: 10 hours per day excluding breaks : -S) plus the training and then I can already exercise, I can not wait!
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Little Chiara & Baloo
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I claim my dogs food, I go to them.
few words put him down, it's already a step ahead.
I embrace the heart.
Chiara
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